Stay mad, stay beautiful.
Monday, 30 March 2015
'A thing of beauty is a joy forever.'
- John Keats
I am a sucker for motivational, inspirational and beautiful quotes. I can remember when I was in my year 11 and 12 at school I use to memorize quotes or short poems and just say them to people, it would be some daily inspiration or 'words of wisdom' from me. I would repeat this almost everyday and usually to the same people, I would like to think that in a way that it brightened their spirits just that little bit. I use to be called cute for doing that. I never found anything cute about it at all. It was inspirational.
This is what I mean by trying to make people smile, I would and sometimes still do, unnecessarily go out of my way to make someone smile or make someones day better, my Mum always says that it's just in my nature to do that and I will admit growing up I have been a people pleaser, meaning I was that 'yes girl', I could never ever say no. I still can't. I was normally taken advantage of because of this, others would use my kindness against me, even in my close knit friends circle I wouldn't dare say no just because of who I am I always and sometimes still am in that state of mind that I owe them something and that friends do that kind of stuff for friends, right?
The funniest thing to me though that because of me being taken advantage of for being too kind was my twin sister offered to give me lessons on 'how to be mean', it did not work at all I would still cave to anything somebody asked me to do. As I grew older I started to realize that this wasn't a good thing at all, friends aren't suppose to use you, people in general aren't suppose to use you for your kindness. That just wasn't how it worked but I guess that's how humans are 'programmed' to think lately, that it is okay to take advantage of a person who has such a kind heart. I guess you could say that this is what hardened me on the inside, I got so sick of people constantly walking all over me because yes I did allow them to do so but I grew up and had a huge wake up call.
I can now say that I am 'normal' in that sense where I am not 'too' kind although I think there is no such thing as too kind, and I'm not a horrible person I have mastered a great balance of both.
I will never stop trying to put a smile on somebodies face or make their day that little bit brighter even if I don't use words I try to smile because like some people say 'a smile goes a long way.'
Stay mad, stay beautiful.
- John Keats
I am a sucker for motivational, inspirational and beautiful quotes. I can remember when I was in my year 11 and 12 at school I use to memorize quotes or short poems and just say them to people, it would be some daily inspiration or 'words of wisdom' from me. I would repeat this almost everyday and usually to the same people, I would like to think that in a way that it brightened their spirits just that little bit. I use to be called cute for doing that. I never found anything cute about it at all. It was inspirational.
This is what I mean by trying to make people smile, I would and sometimes still do, unnecessarily go out of my way to make someone smile or make someones day better, my Mum always says that it's just in my nature to do that and I will admit growing up I have been a people pleaser, meaning I was that 'yes girl', I could never ever say no. I still can't. I was normally taken advantage of because of this, others would use my kindness against me, even in my close knit friends circle I wouldn't dare say no just because of who I am I always and sometimes still am in that state of mind that I owe them something and that friends do that kind of stuff for friends, right?
The funniest thing to me though that because of me being taken advantage of for being too kind was my twin sister offered to give me lessons on 'how to be mean', it did not work at all I would still cave to anything somebody asked me to do. As I grew older I started to realize that this wasn't a good thing at all, friends aren't suppose to use you, people in general aren't suppose to use you for your kindness. That just wasn't how it worked but I guess that's how humans are 'programmed' to think lately, that it is okay to take advantage of a person who has such a kind heart. I guess you could say that this is what hardened me on the inside, I got so sick of people constantly walking all over me because yes I did allow them to do so but I grew up and had a huge wake up call.
I can now say that I am 'normal' in that sense where I am not 'too' kind although I think there is no such thing as too kind, and I'm not a horrible person I have mastered a great balance of both.
I will never stop trying to put a smile on somebodies face or make their day that little bit brighter even if I don't use words I try to smile because like some people say 'a smile goes a long way.'
Stay mad, stay beautiful.
Sunday, 29 March 2015
This blog is going to be like a digital diary, everything that I post on here will be my own personal thoughts, emotions and experiences and moments that I would love to share.
This blog is going to help me to open up myself in a way where I can express myself freely on what I say and show, she is my therapist.
I say we start with introductions.
My name is Sharoan as shown to the right, I am 17 years of age and trying to figure myself out in the world and where I stand, as I am currently unemployed and not studying anything at the moment as this is my gap year. I guess you could call be an optimistic and a pessimistic, I am a walking contradiction we all are for that matter, my thinking is both half empty and half full I can never decide which brings me to this next interesting fact, I am indecisive. Throughout my whole life I can not think of a time where I haven't been able to pick what or where I want to eat straight away the choice always varies and I always have someone else pick for me as it takes way to long, not only does it happen in my nutritional needs but also in my future choices for careers, people say it is a part of being young and that nobody knows what they are going to be but my generation almost everybody knows what they want to be except me, which is a struggle.
I consider myself to be an introvert at the best of times which makes it hard to talk to people so casually and comfortably. Almost like everybody I doubt myself and my ability to excel to my full potential, it comes with being an insecure person who for my whole life has been compared to someone. This brings me to my next fact I am a twin, it is fun and cool having at least one friend even if not by choice but there is also the downside everybody thinks you are the same person in separate bodies, that you share the same interests as one another and do the same things the other does. It's a competition that you don't even know that is going on.
On a more brighter note I enjoy reading, when I have my own place I want to have a library full of almost every genre, my safe haven it will be. I was inspired by this when I saw Beauty and the Beast for the first time.
I have a passion for all types of art, especially art painting, art history and literature, it is so pleasing to all my senses.
I love learning new things even if it is little it will be in my mind always, I'm not book smart but I am smart in a way which I can understand and few people I would say.
As much as I would love to keep writing I have to stop for now.
Stay mad, stay beautiful.
This blog is going to help me to open up myself in a way where I can express myself freely on what I say and show, she is my therapist.
I say we start with introductions.
My name is Sharoan as shown to the right, I am 17 years of age and trying to figure myself out in the world and where I stand, as I am currently unemployed and not studying anything at the moment as this is my gap year. I guess you could call be an optimistic and a pessimistic, I am a walking contradiction we all are for that matter, my thinking is both half empty and half full I can never decide which brings me to this next interesting fact, I am indecisive. Throughout my whole life I can not think of a time where I haven't been able to pick what or where I want to eat straight away the choice always varies and I always have someone else pick for me as it takes way to long, not only does it happen in my nutritional needs but also in my future choices for careers, people say it is a part of being young and that nobody knows what they are going to be but my generation almost everybody knows what they want to be except me, which is a struggle.
I consider myself to be an introvert at the best of times which makes it hard to talk to people so casually and comfortably. Almost like everybody I doubt myself and my ability to excel to my full potential, it comes with being an insecure person who for my whole life has been compared to someone. This brings me to my next fact I am a twin, it is fun and cool having at least one friend even if not by choice but there is also the downside everybody thinks you are the same person in separate bodies, that you share the same interests as one another and do the same things the other does. It's a competition that you don't even know that is going on.
On a more brighter note I enjoy reading, when I have my own place I want to have a library full of almost every genre, my safe haven it will be. I was inspired by this when I saw Beauty and the Beast for the first time.
I have a passion for all types of art, especially art painting, art history and literature, it is so pleasing to all my senses.
I love learning new things even if it is little it will be in my mind always, I'm not book smart but I am smart in a way which I can understand and few people I would say.
As much as I would love to keep writing I have to stop for now.
Stay mad, stay beautiful.
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