'A thing of beauty is a joy forever.'
- John Keats

I am a sucker for motivational, inspirational and beautiful quotes. I can remember when I was in my year 11 and 12 at school I use to memorize quotes or short poems and just say them to people, it would be some daily inspiration or 'words of wisdom' from me. I would repeat this almost everyday and usually to the same people, I would like to think that in a way that it brightened their spirits just that little bit. I use to be called cute for doing that. I never found anything cute about it at all. It was inspirational.
This is what I mean by trying to make people smile, I would and sometimes still do, unnecessarily go out of my way to make someone smile or make someones day better, my Mum always says that it's just in my nature to do that and I will admit growing up I have been a people pleaser, meaning I was that 'yes girl', I could never ever say no. I still can't. I was normally taken advantage of because of this, others would use my kindness against me, even in my close knit friends circle I wouldn't dare say no just because of who I am I always and sometimes still am in that state of mind that I owe them something and that friends do that kind of stuff for friends, right?
The funniest thing to me though that because of me being taken advantage of for being too kind was my twin sister offered to give me lessons on 'how to be mean', it did not work at all I would still cave to anything somebody asked me to do. As I grew older I started to realize that this wasn't a good thing at all, friends aren't suppose to use you, people in general aren't suppose to use you for your kindness. That just wasn't how it worked but I guess that's how humans are 'programmed' to think lately, that it is okay to take advantage of a person who has such a kind heart. I guess you could say that this is what hardened me on the inside, I got so sick of people constantly walking all over me because yes I did allow them to do so but I grew up and had a huge wake up call.
I can now say that I am 'normal' in that sense where I am not 'too' kind although I think there is no such thing as too kind, and I'm not a horrible person I have mastered a great balance of both.
I will never stop trying to put a smile on somebodies face or make their day that little bit brighter even if I don't use words I try to smile because like some people say 'a smile goes a long way.'
Stay mad, stay beautiful.